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Grief
11:06
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The earth whispers, yet I do not heed it's call
Deafened by this mounting grief
This sorrow, unwavering in its fealty
Only serves to strengthen my resolve
Lost the fire...lost the light within
All desire ripped from my eyes as though it were a fleeting dream
Ground these aspirations, you'll never see them through
All I want...remembrance for my time, what some would call a wasted life
I pray on fallen stars, bring me solace now
Sing not for me but to that which I have left behind
On my knees I'd kindle this flame
Weary, as I gaze towards the sky
Brave the cold and darkest pits of despair
I've called to you and drowned myself in loathing
Bitter, yet still...oh how Ive missed that life
Broken and bleeding but still holding on
Hoping that things might change
Sorrow... I feel like its wasted on these things, all that would crumble
Be brave and be humble, oh some would say
All for nothing, ill wither away
Brave the cold and darkest pits of despair
I know you can hear me, that you've read my words
Yet I wonder, has remorse crossed your lips?
Far too forgiving and it drags me down
Never knowing faith is now the darkest path
Sing to me, revealing all
From secrets kept, removed from fear
The silent one, always with me
Lingering, driven by grief
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Anhedonia
07:35
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I feel like I'm failing, stoking embers
Prodding a flame that offers no warming embrace
Fading, smoldering, its light growing dim
Its not how I thought it would be, its so much worse here
With nothing and no one left, to wither alone
Pray, beg if you must
That all that you had may be renewed
Yet you must suffer alone
Still, there's no healing when nothing's left to mend
A weight bearing down upon me, splitting bone, crushing hope and trust
Oh how long must I suffer, a shadow hangs over me still
A tidal force pulling me down further beyond what I can handle
I've seen death standing by my hearth, bidding me to take her hand
Offering a different path, far away from bitterness and longing
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The breathing upon your neck, haunting and cold
crawling and slithering, becoming one
Slowly it eats away at all that you are
Calling you by your name, like lovers forgotten
And slipping into the middle distance,
The space between words unspoken, uncomfortable silence and stoic resolve
Its like the sun stopped shining,
A deafening cry of silence terrifies me
nameless and bitter still, its all that I know
Wandering aimlessly through heartbreak and cold
Solemn and shivering, long have I cried
I feel that light was washed away, abandoned again
Feeling broken down, hollow, without intent
Fighting within myself, no weapon in hand
Losing myself, looking forward to a tragic end
I feel that light was washed away, abandoned again
Feeling broken down, hollow, without intent
Fighting within myself, no weapon in hand
Losing myself, looking forward to a tragic end
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Spiteful and Vile
07:49
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A wallowing pest you are
Dreadful useless filth
Bound to your master's call
Feeding on deprecation
Sallow and loathsome
A whimpering husk of your former self
A shallow and lonesome grave
Far more than I deserve
As I watch the blanket of twilight, neath a bleeding star
Falling fast around me, consumed by need
As if I'd thrust a spear with my own hand, just to feel the sting once more
Memories like binding torment, I cant help but to replay
I can see, I can feel these words so spiteful and vile
Sprouting forth like wretched growth, tainting all with a gesture
Reflections in light, they are bathed, a past most certainly gone
You'll find no footprints return, so suffer alone
A lingering call from the grave points me to the path forward, to nothing
Only silence and pain, could be wrought by such things
You'll see there is nothing to find
While searching inward
You'll be rotting, festering
Forgotten, reduced to nothing
Perpetual misery
Empty handed and betrayed
You could watch the fear in my eyes, almost a haunting ghostly grey
My skin grown pale and cold, and something vapid seeping through
Like a constant wave of numbness, and malice building still
Ill seethe as i bare witness, becoming without form
I can see, I can feel, these words so spiteful and vile
Sprouting forth like wretched growth, tainting all with a gesture
Reflections in light they are bathed, a past most certainly gone
You'll find no footprints return, so suffer alone
Ceaseless thoughts that keep spewing forth, gnashing, gnawing, and bleak
A relentless unfaltering wonder, volatile without remorse
Thrashing and violent, vying subservience
With Blistering rage it consumes
No refuge from hatred or discord
Yet I am bound by an oath I have sworn
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The Black Stag
08:12
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O subject mine, gaze upon and witness me
O vessel mine, follow me into the deep earth
Silence following, I know that you hear my call
Oppressive, encompassing, your will is no longer your own
Oh great one, oh blackest of shade
Who's name knows every tongue
I see you there, I feel you in the rot
With ashen crown of smoldering cinder
And older than the earth we sow
O sorrow mine, call my name and know I will answer
O vengeance mine, stark and cold, long have I missed your touch
Fading, lost from light, and so far removed I am
Aimless, wandering, and naught left of virtue
And though the weight is crushing, a smothering veil, I'm finding it hard to release
Desolate it may seem, though its nothing more than malice bred from insight
While looking inside finds there is nothing left here, nothing to fill me with pride
I resign myself to loathing, writhing, and cursing the light
t feels like its getting darker somehow
Few can see me spiraling, breaking, drowning... I barely have it contained
So exhausting, feigning the norm
Sovereign, waiting, as my light returns to the void
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